This year I have been especially helped in preparing for Advent in two ways. Let me share them with you. The first is listening to a talk each day by John Main from his ‘Collected Talk’s series (available online and as old-fashioned CD’s). I was present as all these talks were given to the first meditation groups that met at the old Montreal priory, the embryo of the WCCM. In fact, I also recorded them, amateurishly, with an old-fashioned tape recorder on cassette. The effect that listening to them today is not nostalgia. It is more of what is called ‘anamnesis’, a term mostly used with regard to the Eucharist, a ‘making present’ of what was eternal, timeless in the original historical event. The opposite of amnesia. Time and eternity flowing together and mingling form the all-inclusive Now.
The talks on average are 15-20 minutes. Each time I hear one it has the effect of hearing it for the first time, familiar but new, like being there again for the first time. This is how the Gospel works on us when we are really present and truly listening I am not a particularly nostalgic person. Friends are often surprised that I need to be reminded about important moments we shared in the past. After a while, it is easy to let go of the past, even though one may still remember it. It is impossible, though, to let go of the present. As for the future, that’s a bridge too far and I am usually content to leave it in God’s invisible hands.
My other Advent practice is sharing the tradition we belong to with the younger members here at Bonnevaux. Some are birds of passage for a few weeks or months, pilgrims. But they can be serious seekers. Even if they were nominally raised in Christian faith, they may know little of what the foundation of our life is here and in the WCCM. What little they do know, however, is precious because it is a foundation for them to build on. Sharing the wisdom of the desert tradition, reading the gospel of Mark, discussing the Rule of Benedict each morning or celebrating the mass with them has a rejuvenating effect on them – and on tradition itself. It blows away the dust of deference and fear that have built up as accretions and restores the pure, illuminating doctrina, the teaching of Christ.
In one life we only have so many Advents and Christmases. Doesn’t it make sense to approach each one without sentimentality or nostalgia, but rather as a rediscovery and rebirth. Advent means ‘coming towards’. What is coming at us, at the speed of light, is therefore already here. What does preparing for it mean, then, except realising the eternal birth of the Word, the Son of God, within the historical birth in Bethlehem and, crucially, no less in our ourselves.
In today’s gospel, today John the Baptist ‘prepares the way’ for Jesus. Though applauded by his contemporaries (before he was executed), his ego was not hooked by his audience. When Jesus appeared, he was humble enough to bow his head to John and be baptised. And John was humble enough to baptise him as a way of recognising Jesus as the one he was waiting for. The collision of these two personal humilities launched the public life of Jesus on his way to Calvary, even as it marked John’s leaving the stage. Meaning and purpose cannot be found without embracing mortality. The birth of Jesus includes the full reality of death and the whole cycle of birth, death and so ultimately of resurrection.
Laurence Freeman OSB